Graduating

Well graduating was not as exciting as I would have thought a couple of years ago. Michael Crow's big speech to us the graduating class was " Never complain. Just solve." I'm going to take that as don't complain that we raise our rates, lower our standards, and pay less to our teachers every year..... Never complain. I'm pretty sure everyone hates that guy. He sounded like a douche mostly because it seems like he is completely disconnected from the student body. Everyone who was presenting could pick out which students were getting awards from the crowd. Mr.Crow knew exactly no one and his jokes were not funny.

 I think all the stress of planning this whole ordeal has gotten to me. It's a long turn to serious town to explain all of it but it mostly revolves around my family and how crazy they are. I know most people think "oh my life is crazy lalala". But I mean it in the way that my mother didn't show up because my father would be somewhere in the area of thousands of people. My brother had a dentist appointment that simply couldn't be changed, even though there would be 2 full hours of him to get back to his place.

Anyways I had a great time with my friends and my lost family. All I wanted was a low-key non-drama day. I didn't really advertise because honestly I didn't want to keep track of people. As social as I can be when I want time to have fun I hate being in charge. I just wanna go with the flow. Anyways, off to Hawaii next week for Danielle's wedding. Tim and I are going to adventure around and I can't wait to run around with him.

The Journey

When I first started teaching yoga a couple of years ago my idea of the perfect yoga teacher was someone who was the "perfect person". The ideal teacher to me then was in amazing physical shape had all the answers for my tough questions and knew about nearly every avenue to heal the body through meditation, nutrition and exercise. The perfect blend of hippie, elegance, and sophistication. This ideal yoga goddess. There was a studio I worked at where one of the higher ups actually told us we should wear make-up before teaching. Teaching a hot yoga class. Because that doesn't go against everything we've been teaching people about loving yourself for who you are. 

I tried to teach like this for the two years.... But in reality that doesn't exist. It was hard to pretend like I didn't have bad days or feelings like I didn't judge people occasionally. I'm a human, and I've grown up in America where we learn to judge each other and when the thin and tan have better lives than the out of shape. Where we are told to be thinner, make more money, buy more things, get married before you're 30, have a job where you'll be placed in a box for 8 hours a day with the gleaming light at the end of the boring tunnel is a good 401k. 

The whole idea of perfection is all a bunch of hooey. We all are just doing the best with what we have to better it as best we can. I'm trying to find my path and I think I've got it. I'm starting with my morals first. I want to work to make the world a better place. I want to change peoples minds and heart towards themselves and other people; because people are meant to cooperate not compete. Darwin said it pretty often actually. It's true though, physically we are weak and without the help and support of other people we would have died off a long time ago.